Lately life has been 'confusing' to put it simply. Perhaps 'unsatisfying' could be another term. Either way, life is not turning out the way my stubborn firey redheaded mind would have planned for it to look at twenty years of age. By now I should have everything I wanted and be completely satisfied and content, and have a clear and good direction for my life. That's what the Lord owes me right? I spend my life following Him, He gives me blessings? right? Oh how easily I twist His truth and the living-breathing Word of God. He does not owe me anything. Quite honestly, He doesn't even owe me life or eternal life or abundant life, because I was a sinner bound for hell, but His loving heart rescued me and now I am saved by grace and given His righteousness along with every blessing in the heavenly places. (ephesians 1:3) through His son, Jesus Christ.
At times, when I am hurting or confused or stubborn and set on my own will. I simply need to look to Jesus. I was reading through psalms 85 the other day and came upon this verse:
“Mercy and truth are met together; righteousness and peace have kissed each other.”
My heart can't help but believe that these verses foreshadow the beauty of what Jesus Christ displayed on the cross, where righteousness kissed peace and truth and mercy were joined together. Perhaps, when we gaze upon that treasure, mystery, and wonder, the things of this world will grow strangely dim and we will be filled with the One who owes us nothing, but gave us EVERYTHING...
as it says in the sweet verses of Isaiah 61:
I delight greatly in the LORD;
my soul rejoices in my God.
For He has clothed me with garments of salvation
and arrayed me in a robe of His righteousness,
as a bridegroom adorns his head like a priest,
and as a bride adorns herself with her jewels.
as a bride adorns herself, let me adorn myself with the jewels of Your salvation and rejoice greatly in Your love. for there, alone, will I be completely satisfied...
