octavius winslow

i'm slowly learning writing could possibly be my get away. which could be a good thing or a bad thing. all i know is words are the only thing that remain the same. in a crazy and hectic world. that's always changing. His Word is the only thing that eternally stays the same. just like it says in Isaiah 40:8 the grass whithers and the flowers fade but the Word of our Lord stands forever.
my life is changing in multiple ways right now. school is done, for a while. i'm no longer an RA as of today. my last girl has left and checked out. i'm leaving a staff of wonderful men and women on SoMo, and now in approximately one week i will be driving down to South Carolina to disciple three girls for a summer. i told my friend anna two days ago.

"i feel like my life is some quirky indie movie and it's on fast forward"
she said
"thats ok, it's an exciting movie and the ending is amazing"

true.

in all of this changing He remains the same. His Word remains the same when our words fail. He's faithful when we're faithless. He's loving when we're wayward. He's so strong when we are so weak. so i'm going to rest in His unchanging grace. it really doesn't matter if i was an amazing RA or fail at discipling these girls. either way it's Him who reveals His grace for them. my works are filthy rags and He's already paid it all. all i know is i get to spend the rest of my life loving and being loved by my Savior. and honestly, that's more than ok with me...

“there existed no love but the love of Jesus equal to the work of salvation.

Love less divine, less strong, less gentle, could never have won your heart, uprooted your enmity, tore you from your idols; enthroning Christ, all of Christ, Christ only, Christ supremely, Christ forever!

Beloved, nothing shall take the love of Christ from you, or separate you from it. It does not ebb with the ebbing of your feelings; it does not chill with the chill of your affections; it does not change with the changing scenes and circumstances of your life.”

octavius winslow

shelly moore band

i should be studying for my first final write now. but sometimes i can't help but write. i've been thinking a lot about Spirit and Truth lately i'm learning, as stressful times slowly come upon me, especially this week, the Enemy has the strongest foothold when it comes to my emotions. they ebb and flow from day to day, trust me. but when i remember the basic truths of our faith Satan has no place. as it says in Ephesians stand therefore having fastened on the belt of truth at the end of the verse it says and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word.
i do not think that when it comes to worshipping in Spirit and in Truth as it says in John 4:23. that one is more important than the other. but rather one flows out of the other. it says in John 4:24 that God is Spirit...not our emotions or feelings...

our emotions will change from day to day we will one day "feel" the Lord near and the next He will seem unreachable. i just want you to know that in the midst of finals He is the same God today as He was the day you were born. ever loving and ever pursuing your heart. just as the day He laid down His life on the cross for you. don't let finals affect your relationship with the Lord. stand on the TRUTH of His unchanging grace and love.

paul and john

so we're going through Philippians this summer while i'm down in South Carolina.
i really wonder how i'm going to live this verse out?

If you have any encouragement from being united with Christ, if any comfort from his love, if any fellowship with the Spirit, if any tenderness and compassion, then make my joy complete by being like-minded, having the same love, being one in spirit and purpose. Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others. Philippians 2:1-4


Your attitude should be the same as that of Christ Jesus: Who, being in very nature God, did not consider equality with God something to be grasped, but made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant, being made in human likeness. And being found in appearance as a man, he humbled himself and became obedient to death— even death on a cross! Philippians 2:5-8

so we love because He first loved us as john always said time and time again. i just wish i could daily remember this.

Abba help us love like you love. humbly, passionately, and self-sacrificially...